I don’t even know where to begin. It felt like it was never going to end and every time I turned around there was something else I had to deal with.

My day began like any other. I got up, got ready for work, chilled a little. It seemed like it was going to be a pretty decent day.

Well that disappeared within 10 minutes of getting to the office. I barely have a chance to log into my computer when the phone rings. Turns out one of my soldiers felt the need to attempt suicide this morning after PT. So I rush to the hospital to find out what the fuck is going on only to be greeted by my first sergeant who wants details I don’t have. I alert the other NCOs I work with, one of them calls my boss, we are all there at the hospital, only to be told to go back to work, there’s nothing we can do at the moment and they’ll call us when we can see him.

I’m not back at work more than 15 minutes when they call wanting someone to go sit with the kid. Since I”m the only one back at the office, I get to go. Now, this soldier is brand fucking new. He’s been here a week, I don’t even know the guy. Fuck, I had just found out this morning that he’d confessed yesterday to having a drinking problem, which started after he got over his drug problem. So now I have to sit with the guy, in a hospital room. I didn’t know what to say to him, so we just sat there in silence while the medical people did their thing, checking his vitals and such. Oh, and one insensitive bastard decided to hit on me while we was at it. Fucking wonderful.

After a couple hours of pure boredom, me nauseous the whole time because all I can smell is antiseptic and vomit, I finally get another NCO to sit with him so I can go back to work. He finally got released this afternoon, but is on suicide watch for the night. Both my coworkers had to pull duty watching him. I couldn’t because I’m a female and it’s a safety issue to leave me alone in a barracks room watching over a suicidal male soldier. That and the fact that while on suicide watch, the babysitter has to watch the suicidal soldier at all times. And by all times, I mean even when the soldier is taking care of business. So the watcher has to be the same gender as the suicidal soldier.

I don’t what’s going to happen to this soldier. I hope he gets the help he needs. He’s a good kid. Just having some problems.