Amazing
Posted by Gypsy on Mar 21, 2006
Amazing what some good cardio and angry, hate filled music can do to improve one’s mood.
The past couple days I’ve been dealing with some minor drama. Each day a new twist or turn comes out and it just gets worse. Most of it barely concerns me with the exception of one part, but I have no control of the situation and can merely sit back and watch it unfold, which is a huge problem for a control freak like me.
On top of this is the major drama in my life, which by now everyone should know. For those who don’t, I’ve asked Jeremy for a divorce. That’s all for another post that will come soon.
But by this morning I’d just had it with everything and needed some moments to myself. So during lunch, I grabbed my ipod and PT clothes and went to the gym. Hopping on the crossclimber (my new favorite piece of cardio equipment), I pressed play on my ipod and just started running. It was great. And somehow the shuffle function knows me well becuase the first song right off the bat was the Marilyn Manson song that got me through many a bad mood over the last 8 years.
I can’t say I’m in a great mood, because one 30 minute run just isn’t enough at this point, but I’m definitely less stressed out. And that’s enough for me.
So much to say…
Posted by Gypsy on Mar 16, 2006
…and yet I really can’t talk about it.
Things have been crazy since I got back from NYC (details from my trip can be found at www.gypsygentilli.blogspot.com).
I don’t even know if crazy is the word for it, but things are changing in my life, and some of it is drastic. Some of you know what’s going on, but many don’t, so I’m not going to splay it all over here just yet, but needless to say I’ve been kinda stressed. The upcoming months have the potential to be very hard for me. I know I’m a strong person and I’ll make it though. Luckily I’ve had a lot of support from my friends and family, I don’t know what I would do without them.
Unfortunately, my life isn’t the only one that will be affected. I wish there was a way I could help that. I don’t like knowing that to make myself happy, others might have to suffer. But things have to change in my life. I’m not happy and life is too short to keep waiting for a chance to be. I have to make my happiness, otherwise it won’t happen.
Migraines suck
Posted by Gypsy on Mar 9, 2006
Today started out as any other day. I overslept for work, woke up with a bit of a headache, but figured it would go away once I woke up and got some caffeine in me.
Holy shit was I ever wrong.
Even worse, it was one of those slow forming migraines that start out just irritating and ultimately make it so where even a sip of water makes you want to throw up and even the dimmest of lights makes it hurt worse.
By 11 a.m., I couldn’t even listen to my ipod and by 12:30 I could barely look at the computer. By 2 I just couldn’t take it anymore and begged them to just let me go home. Thankfully they could tell something was wrong and let me go. Which was good because by the time I left I wasn’t sure I was going to make it the 45 minutes home, any later and I definitely wouldn’t have been able to do it.
Halfway home and I couldn’t take it anymore, I had to take one of my migraine pills. By the time I got home, I was in so much pain that I walked in and just dropped everything, changed into my PJs, took another pill and went to bed. Three hours later I finally woke up feeling a little more normal. I can eat again and the pain is gone, for the most part. It’s still hovering there, but I think it’ll be gone after a good night’s sleep. I’m so glad the weekend is almost here.
Another round of physical therapy
Posted by Gypsy on Mar 8, 2006
So today I had another appointment with my physical therapist. I find it funny that each month when I go to see her there is another reason why my back / hip are in pain. First is was that some bone was slightly rotated. Then I get told it’s because my bones are flexible, cause that same bone to shift and such. This time, I get told it’s because one leg is shorter than the other. Now you would think, if it were the last option, this would have been a problem for the last 24 years, not just the past two.
On top of that, two years after all this started, they finally decide to order some X-rays. I really hope they find something in them to show what is the problem. Although, if they do, I will be extra pissed off because that means they could’ve fixed me two years ago if they had just ordered a damn X-ray.
Regardless, the profile is still on for another month. No running, sit-ups, push-ups or really anything for yet another month. The only thing I really can do is walk and use an elliptical trainer. I’m in the worst shape ever and am going to have some massive problems when I can finally PT again.
