Well, I went to see my lawyer today and start finalizing the divorce paperwork. With the exception of a packet I have to full out for my lawyer to keep on file, my job is done. Jeremy should be getting served his copy of the divorce papers within the next 2-3 weeks. From the date he is served, it will be six months and one day until the divorce is final. All he has to do is sign the papers and place them in the included envelope and it’ll be over. Well, except for the waiting peroid.

I’m still not always completely sure how I feel about this. Some days, I’m glad to be single again. To be able to take trips and go out without wondering if there’s going to be a fight over how much I drank that night or how late I was out. Other times I just feel lonely. I miss having someone to cuddle up to at night, I miss having someone there to talk to when I get home from work. I even miss the little shit like going grocery shopping together. I miss almost everything that comes with being in a relationship.

That’s not to say that I want Jeremy back or I’m going to hop into another relationship right away. Jeremy’s made it clear on his site how happy he is to be free of me and I just want to take some time to take care of me. I just miss having someone else to take care of, too, sometimes.