With everything I’ve been going through over the last couple months, moreso in the last couple weeks, I’ve been truly lucky to have an awesome support network of friends there to take me out, cheer me up and make me realize that things are getting better for me. For someone who was once told she was so horrible a person that she didn’t deserve to even have friends, I’ve been lucky enough to have a group of them so fiercely loyal and so amazing they’ll do anything to make sure I’m happy, as they all know I’ll do for them.

Proof of that was really seen over the last weekend, when I was able to spend time with or at least talk to most of those friends. I spent my Friday and Saturday nights with those friends that are here. I had such an awesome time. Friday night I went out with my friend Joey, hanging out with a bunch of other friends and then meeting up later with Michelle, who has quickly become one of my closest friends. It was actually a pretty low key night because I was still a bit tired from adjusting to my medications and Joey not feeling too well, so we both called it a night kind early, but I still had fun and was able to rest up for Saturday night, which wasn’t an early night by any means. Again, we ended up at the bar, minus Joey (who was still kinda sick) and plus Kerri.

Michelle was on a mission. I think she may have went up to every single guy in that bar she knew (plus a few she didn’t know) to tell them how gorgeous she thinks I am, getting no less than five of them to spend a good portion of the night trying to hit on me. While I’m not interested in any of them like that, it was quite the ego boost.

On top of two awesome nights out, I got to talk on the phone and via instant message with a couple of my closest friends, the ones I never get to see. I think that may have been the best pick-me-up of all. One is going through a rough time, so I got to be there for her, returning the favors I owe everyone who has been there for me lately. She did something this weekend that made me extremely proud of her and though I won’t write about it here because it’s her story to tell, I hope she knows how proud I am that she faced something she was really scared of. The other cheers me up whenever I speak to her. I would jump in front of a bullet for this girl because I owe her more than I can say for everything she’s done for me. The last is someone who’s stood by me through this all, even though it may not have been the popular thing to do. For that I’ll always be in debt to her. I’m lucky to have her as a friend, even though she’s more than a friend, she’s my sister.

Right now, I’m just feeling really good about life. I have great friends and family who I love more than anything. And while I say they are fiercely loyal to me, I must also mention that I’m just as loyal to them. I would do anything for these people, the ones I’ve mentioned here and the ones I haven’t but are just as important to me. And while I hope none of them go through tough times, I hope they all realize that if they do, I’ll be right here to return the support they have so generously given me.